Happy mommy day to me!!! didn't feel to happy... but there is a frist for everything and that was kinda neat. Things have been getting so busy but in other ways so dull... I go to school and babysit 2 kids right after and work all weekend... and can't forget my darling katie bear is my first priority. I've been so physicly drained and mentally exosisted. (i can't spell) some things never change. I once again have no friends.. not even on the web... No one even talks to me on deviantart anymore... but the art is still good so i still stay.Its just katie and myself but I don't mind. It does get a little lonely but nothing new.
One good note is im going on tuesday to talk to a tattoo artist and hopfully we can come up with something beautiful. It will be posted after its done, don't worry(for anyone that even sees this)
Latly I can't sleep... I sit there for hours and think.. or everything and nothing at once..... i drift away and bounce right back into thought... but last night was different... last night just hit me hard.... i was laying there and all of a sudden the thoughts took over and a tear fell... it was the first time in a while and i had to stop and think... and all of a sudden words were forming and i grabbed a candle and a pencil and started to write... it started off as some kinda crappy poem i guess( im just washed up now anways) but it went on for two pages... and finally i put it away and watched the candle for awhile... blew it out and the drakness was comforting... i fell alseep a lil while after....
I hate the feeling of pain.... i hate feeling sad now.. it makes me pissed off at the thing or perosn or w.e it is that caused it. I was thinking of posting the writing i did but then again i don't know.... no one really reads this stuff anyways so... i guess ill just keep it in the note book.... its late so should try to settle down... farewell...